i suck, remember that :D

I'm so sick of studying. I've never wanted to study acctually. Since primary school i aimed to go normal academic, maybe even technical. I never cared bout my studies. Theres no prove that if you have good qualifications you'll succeed in life. Its all bullshit. However, since im already in deep shit, i'm forced to go with the flow.. I don't have the heart to disappoint my loved ones, parents mostly. I feel like im so dumb, like i just cant absorb things anymore. I really hope i'll be in those turnback cases. How demoralising when i got back my mid year results. Whatever it is, i cant give up now. Im halfway there. I all i have to do is hang on. Friends are there with me, we all go throught the same shit. Argh. Enough bout studies. I never excelled anyway. Gonna have english workshop tomorrow. Seriously hope its worth going to, hope it helps me up. Lets talk bout love life, ohh yeah, i have none. Oh well, what do i care, im not up to anyone's standard anyway, im so LOW :D > solo. Anyway, i really wanna make a study group, imma need some smartasses to be in it. And yeah some motivaters LOL. okaylah, im all tired already, wanna rest then study again. Shall i skip ngaji later? hmm, entahlah ehh. bye world. remember, i suck.