i suck, remember that :D

I'm gonna be so dead if i continue like this. I barely look at my books anymore. Its time to really go for it, go get it. There's no point for me to type all this shit and dont even do it. I've gotta realise that this is my future i'm talking about. In this country, its all about qualifications. 1 Q can guarantee you the other B and Cs. Career, condo, car, chicks, children, bini, bikes. Haha okay thats dumb.
Tuition has been helping out, especially in my combined science. Gerek omg. If only i had that straight As brain of his. Haiz, ape nak buat. Its time i take responsibility for my studies manzx. Time to sacrifice all the other shits. Time to be selfish. I gotta carry on. I wanna study my malay man, baca buku melayu. Yeah you guys might be asking why the hell am i talking about malay when the papers are already done. The answer is that i know i'll have to retake. That answer booklet i handed in, that was a hundred percent bullshito. I cant memorise shit, kosa kata, peribahasa. Im so much confortable with english, yet i still suck at both languages. Kanina. Okay enough of academics, now to life style.

Theres so much in life i've learnt. Friends are the best thing man could ask for. Have been ton-ing with fahrul over a number of days already, didnt know he could last throughout the night.. Mavie has a great sense of hospitality, knows how to treat his friends good. Shafizan, as usual slacking always yet he's smart guy. Azizul Hakeem, kekek uhh ni anak. Has his own ways to entertain people lahh.

You'll still not over me huh? kat facebook pon nak message aku, kept giving me all this goodnight messages. I just cant show you that fake smile anymore luhh, we're not how we used to be. I've got my studies, you've got yours. Yeah i made u change your minah attitude, but thats for your own good, not mine. If u wanna change back, start piercing, memaki hamun, campur ngan kawan kawan sial kau ni semuer, its up to you. I've given up. I've played my part, now its yours to play. I'm taking my heart back, we dont deserve each other. Yeah im in the wrong to love you in the first place. I shouldnt even get to know you. Its an effing big mistake. Having you in my life just got things even more complicated. I'm having all these random crushes just to distract myself from ya, i think. I shuoldnt be wasting my time blogging bout you anyway. You're a disgrace to women. Women dont create havoc under void decks, women dont vulgar aloud in public. That 5 months together was unnecessary. You've never needed me and i never needed you. We're using each other for entertainment. Getting to know your parents and everything, that was a mistake too. Even though they said im a good guy all this shit, i know in their minds this is just too early for us to think of love. Just look at this paragraph about us, its longer than the rest. Yet i've so much more to say, im just not willing to blog it. I'm gone.

i shouldnt have love you from the start.

~mr.crapstuff.